Since I was 17
Ive always hated my body
And it feels like my bodys hated me
Can somebody find me a pill
To make me un-afraid of me?
Seen every therapist, but Im a cynical bitch
Dont like to talk about my feelings
I take another hit, I find another fake fix
Cause its easier than healing
I dont wanna be this way forever
Keep telling myself that Ill get better
Every time I try, I always stop me
Maybe Im just scared to be happy
Since I was 22
Ive been with somebody who loves me
And Ive been tryna believe its true
But my head always messes up my heart
No matter what I do
Seen every therapist, but Im a cynical bitch
Dont like to talk about my feelings
I take another sip, I swear its my last fix
Cause its easier than healing
I dont wanna be this way forever
Keep telling myself that Ill get better
Every time I try, I always stop me
Maybe Im just scared to be happy
I dont wanna be this way forever
Keep telling myself that Ill get better
Every time I try, I always stop me
Maybe Im just scared to be happy
Maybe Im just scared to be happy
Maybe Im just scared to be happy
Im so scared of having something to lose
Im scared of being somebody new
Im so scared of all them seeing the truth
Cause right now Ive got nothing
But I dont wanna be this way forever
Keep telling myself that Ill get better
Every time I try, I always stop me
Maybe Im just scared to be happy
Maybe Im just scared to be happy (maybe, yeah)
Maybe Im, Im scared to be happy